my biggest insecurity

i am so afraid that ppl r going to hate me or simply just make fun of me , i wonder what is it like to know ppl who are not from ur circle of friends , but thinkin of it makes me super insecure i have no self-stem . i cant really blend in thats why my public school suck i tend to speak english all the time so girls think am showing-off  but am not i just cant help it and am not stopping .am almost crying coz of this i cant really go anywhere thats why am always in or just hangin with the same ppl all the time it kinda suck but i kinda got used to it and every body thinks am kinda weird but wht is normal , maybe normal means robots , i rather be weird and different than roboty and same as every one 

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